In the midst of tribulation I am finding such joy in the smaller things that sum up my now. I am beyond grateful for moments like this when I can contemplate what is good and how My Pappa has always and continues still to work through every season for good in my life. Writing has always helped me to center by focusing on Him and becoming still and quiet in order to hear His voice over the noise of my racing mind that naturally falls prey to pulling myself up by the bootstraps and plunging ahead in my own “power.”
Today I met with friends, sisters, who see me and choose to trust me, hold space for me, truly love me and encourage me. I’ve spent most of my life without this kind of agape love and I do not take this gift from My Pappa for granted.
Yesterday I worked with a family that I simply adore. They invite me into their lives with such intimacy, sincerity and appreciation. It is a gift to love and be loved by them.
Today I received the wall hanging for my office that I’ve been waiting for. The office that I have longed for and is now becoming a reality. I am sitting at my desk, looking out the window at various tree limbs against the cloud-filled sky. Having a space where I can ponder, pray, write and contemplate, filled with things that remind me of joy is a dream come true. Having my husband and my Caleb help me put the room together has made me giddy, at times.
I am learning and relearning so much during this time. I am repeatedly reminded to lean into My Pappa. I am also reminded again, and again to trust that what I’ve instilled in my children will not lie dormant, but that they are amazing ADULT human beings who love and serve Our Pappa. They will flounder and fall, but unlike 20-something-year-old me, they have relationship with a God that loves them without condition and earthly parents who have a relationship with that same Pappa God.
As James told us:
So, I will keep remembering to consider this season a gift. I daily remind myself to be confident that Our Pappa is growing our faith, maturing and developing us more and more into who He made us to be, all the while being aware of how very loved and blessed we are and always have been.
This is a great way to remember who He is: